"I am sure that you have had a time like this in your life. When you are faced with a decision that you know should be easy, it feels right… but something held you back. This was that moment for me. I had to wrap my head around what it meant to be involved with a man that had an ex-wife and two small children. Based on what I knew about Tyler’s and Vera’s marriage and divorce I knew that I was not going to be dealing with the most rational or civil person in the world… and what about the children. I loved kids, what I was concerned with was would they like me. Would they think I was going to try to be their mother? Would they hate me because I wasn’t their mother? Divorce was a new concept for me. No one in my family was divorced. I just didn’t know how to deal with it."
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"As I was in the delivery room, I was terrified. I didn’t know what to expect. They would not let Tyler in with me. The Neonatal specialist explained that he wouldn’t know if the baby would survive until he saw him. They made me physically deliver the baby rather than taking him by c-section. As soon as he was delivered, I got a quick glimpse of him and the nurse ran out of the room with him. I was taken to a private room, where Tyler was able to be with me. The specialist came in shortly afterward and explained that it did not look good for our son. He explained that he was too premature and his skin bruised each time they touched him. I began crying hysterically. God couldn’t take my child from me. I knew our son was strong like us…he would survive."
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